Nagulat ang asawa ni ate Sarah sa sinabi ko. Wala silang kaalam alam sa mga pasakit na naranasan ko kay Jess. That day, I gave birth prematurely to a baby boy weighing only 4.11 lbs Caesarian Section. My baby was placed in the incubator for about 2 weeks before he was allowed to go home. Jess was again nice, spending time with our son Jacob. Naguguluhan ako sa nangyayari samin. Pero that time gusto ko na lang tumakbo paalis at kalimutan ang buhay ko with Jess.
I stayed home to care for our son until he was about 10 months. His being premature was a bit of a problem per at around 7 months he was doing well. He even started walking at 9 months. Our lives became somewhat normal again. We didn't fight for a while. I went back to work as A Robotics Research Engineer. But as I go up in my career, ganun naman ang pagiging insecure ni Jess. Dumating na sa point wherein he would go to my work place and literally stand outside the window of my office awaiting the time that I would answer calls from clients and colleagues. Then he would call me and would get mad stating that I was talking with a boyfriend or boyfriends as he specifically emphasized.
I go home every day with a heavy heart. I wanted to stay at the office because that's the only place I feel safe. Can you imagine? I feel better at work than at home. The only reason I still go home is because of Jacob, my then 10 month old baby.
He's not a bad father nor a bad husband. (That's how I viewed it before, I was young and stupid). I always give him credit for at least providing for his family.
Amidst all the effort, I still don't feel happy anymore. I stay just because we have a child.
My career keeps going strong. Nothing can stop me from getting that Director position in my branch. I wanted it so bad that I decided to keep working till late hours. Overtime here and there. i just can't be stopped. Maybe it was my fault after all. As my job is in the professional side, I'd have to attend Galas and Formal Dinners. And I was still at my right mind to not bring my husband to one of those. One he drinks too much, two he would lose his head and then create a scene.
Annual dinner for my company is coming up. I have no escort, so I decided to just go ahead and spend my time with one of my colleagues. Jhun, another Filipino stayed with me the whole night. We danced, we talked, we had fun. It was such a big difference to be able to talk to someone about politics, current events and such. I have nothing like that at home. He dropped me home at around 10 pm. Jess was waiting at our apartment building balcony. I gave Jhun a quick kiss on the cheek and said my thanks for the wonderful evening.
I got inside the apartment. Jess was waiting. Before I can even say "hi" I was knocked out with a powerful punch. I regained consciousness when he was dragging me towards the couch.
Gel: Jess what the fuck are you trying to do?
Jess: What the fuck ba? Shit ka malandi ka. Kala mo ba di ko nakitang nakikipaghalikan ka sa gagong yun? Ano number nun para malaman nya na may asawa ka!
Gel: First of, he knows may asawa na ko, second, di ako nakikipaghalikan I gave him a kiss sa cheek as a thank you and third...
(WHAPAK)He smack my face with the back of his hand...
Jess: Puta ka binigay ko sayo buong buhay ko. Lolokohin mo lang ako. Tulad ka rin ni Arlene. Pareho kayong malandi.
The last hit on my face was my reality check. Every single thing flashed back on my head. From the minuscule detail of our relationship to the present. I just had enough of the hitting and shouting. I can' take it anymore. When he said the name "Arlene" my entire being just stopped breathing. Arlene was his ex-gf who apparently had sex with his best friend.
Gel: Fuck you Jess! I'm no fucking Arlene! Yan ba dahilan why our relationship is not working because in your mind your still with Arlene? Fuck this Jess! I wasted almost for years of my life with you.
Medyo natauhan na naman si Jess. He then hugged me, touched my now swollen face and then said sorry while trying to kiss me. I broke away from him and went to the room. I turned on my web cam. For some reason I had this feeling inside me that I needed to capture my bruises. After about 7 shots of my black eye, swollen cheeks and almost bloody eyeballs, I turned off my computer and went to bed.
I went to work the next day with my sunglasses on. Jhun noticed me and quickly ran to my side.
Jhun: Hey, musta na?
Gel: Don't wanna talk about it! Leave me alone.
Jhun: Huy ano ba? Kagabi ok ka naman. What's going on with you?
Gel: You wouldn't want to know...
Jhun: Oh come on Gel... For the past year you were my supervisor while I was a student. We became friends and you know that. Alam ko na how you look like pag may problem ka. And ngayon lang kita nakitang ganyan as if you're helpless.
Gel: Thanks for the emphasis on the "helplessness"!
Jhun: Angelique, serious ako...di ko lang sinasabi sayo pero halata ang maga ng face mo. What happened?
Jhun directed me to go to the board room. No meetings yet so we have the board room to ourselves. He made me sit down and took off my sunglasses.
Jhun: Shit! Who did this?
I didn't say anything.
Jhun: Who did this Gel?
Gel: My husband. (I started crying then)
Jhun just hugged me. He left me for a while came back with my bag and our jackets.
Jhun: I told Sheila we have a meeting to go to. You shouldn't be at work today. I'm bringing you somewhere where we can talk.
I didn't know Jess followed me to work that day. Of course, he thought something is going on especially now that I'm with the same person again.
Jhun and I went to Lakeshore. We just watched the waves. He told me that he was gay and is now living with his boyfriend. he made me laugh so hard that I almost forgot what had happened the day before.
I decided to go home on a taxi this time to avoid hassle from Jess. The moment I opened my door a fist hit my face again. Jess dragged me to our room, took off my clothes. He started touching my pussy as if searching for something.
Jess: Oh bakit di basa ang pekpek mo? Pinunasan mo ba para di ka mahalata na may ginawa kayo ng bf mo?
Gel: Ano na naman ba pinagsasabi mo? Shit Jess tama na please.
Jess: Bakit di ba ko kasing sarap nya?
(He put his face near my pussy and started licking it.)
Jess: Linis na linis to ah, talagang nilinis mo ang ebidensya.
Gel: Fuck Jess, walang nangyari samin ni Jhun.
Jess: Jhun pala pangalan ng gagong yun. Pinagpalit mo ko sa pangit na yun?
(He then put his fingers inside my pussy and I started getting wet)
Jess: Malibog ka talaga. sino ba talaga samin ang mas masarap Gel?
Gel: Ikaw lang Jess. Nobody else had touched me since naging tayo.
He hit me again on the face.
Jess: Fucking liar!
Jess went on top of me. I tried to get away but he rammed his cock inside me. I never thought that I will be raped by my own husband. He held me tight that I can't move. I tried to get away. Shouting, yelling for help. Every time I start to become louder, he would smack me again. He finally came. As his buddy became rigid, he hugged me...
Jess: I'm sorry Gel...I love you...
I just cried as he fell asleep. I slowly stood up to get myself cleaned up. But he pulled me by my hair.
Jess: San ka pupunta? Tatakas ka? Pupunta ka sa boyfriend mo?
Gel: I just needed to go to the washroom.
Jess: Dito ka lang!
I heard my son crying already. He had slept at the living room. Thank God he was asleep during the commotion. Jess didn't want me to go near my son.
Jess: Di mo pwedeng hawakan si Jacob. Puta ka. Walang nanay na puta ang anak ko.
Nagpintig ang tenga ko, I rushed to my son and for the first time in my life I decided to fight back with my life. He came to me again and I hit back. I pushed him on a corner, grabbed the phone and hit "911" I was fast to say, "I'm being beaten up by my husband" They traced my call as Jess took the phone away from me. Jess thought they won't be able to get to me.
Just few minutes later police came, handcuffed him and took him to the police station. His brother Carl came home and threatened that I should be out of the house by the time he comes back or else. I told the police what Jess' brother said and they also took him to the police station. Nanay was at Kuya Yuri that time, they didn't know what was happening until they got a phone call from the police and they bailed the brothers out.
I decided to leave Toronto and move to Mississauga, start a new life, a quiet one.
side note: My story with Jess didn't end here. Please read "Kuya Bobby" as a continuation to my life's story. We'll go back to Jess again later on kasi di ko pa rin binitiwan ang pagiging tanga ko after Kuya Bobby! :D